||[Mar. 25th, 2008|09:47 pm]
its nice not having any work to do over the break. ive actually got a lot done though. im way ahead in everything. plus ive gotten some clothing projects that were totally neglected finished with. i really want to get back into that again. i miss screen printing and customizing. |
being in a mindsset for so long and then have all that change within a few seconds really tore me up. i had this awful feeling in the pit of my stomach. it's not so much that i didnt want that feeling again, its the fact that i never thought i would have that feeling again. intution really screws with me. and it doesnt make it any better that there wasnt any ending. there's too many unresolved issues.
i really hate whinning and complaining on here. thats really all i use this thing for. it's pretty lame.
i dont know whats going on. i havent been making the right choices (and i'll be th first to say it) and i feel like complete trash. i have all this energy but no will power. i have all these things to say but no courage. i have time but no job. there's things i want, but i got no money. and i got a license, but no ride.
the funny thing is...im really happy this week. even though im thinking about all this shit.
well, at least im going to ny this weekend. i really need some new air.